there is so much negativity here in my home - my dad is a heavy machinery operator and  hes been layed off for longer than usually this winter
we have no money and all the bills are behind, we couldnt pay the phone and they said they were going to shut it off but they havent, we’re running out of heat/propane fast in this old house,  i dont know when everything else will go
My parents fight a lot and for awhile it got better but its not better they are arguing more and more and on top of that my younger brother and sister are extremely rude and selfish they dont listen and my brother is having a lot of problems in school
and me? im just here but really im not i try to never be home its too much i cant take it anymore my depression is getting worse here and every second it gets harder and harder for me to not give in and pick up my old habits of cutting
theres so so so much more going on around me - here, school, friend everything
yea i know life isnt easy but this is all too much its so hard to deal with and i dont even have anyone who can really comfort me since my boyfriends parents cant know we are dating i just want to be held and told everything will be okay even if it wont i just need someone here with me…